It all started with a girl.
My girlfriend and I were dating for almost 2 years when her best friend phoned me. She had to confess to me that my girlfriend recently cheated on me. Twice.
You would think that I would freak out, break down in tears or perform a casting audition for the sequel to Anger Management, but an unexpected coldness simply filled that space. I thanked my friend, assuring her she did the right thing, and headed out to my girlfriend's place.
In retrospect I think the reason for the coldness was that something snapped that day. At that point the relationship was straight Jerry Springer material. I was being used and abused and just allowing it to happen again and again. This was the final straw.
During the drive over to my girlfriend's house the emotions started flooding back. It was a textbook tragedy as far as break-ups go. A week before this little - which I'm sure registered about an 8.2 on the Richter Scale - we compiled a CD to play in my car containing songs we both liked. I clearly remember throwing her with this same CD, hoping for it to shatter, which would've been fantastically symbolic of how she shattered my heart. It only bounced of her head.
Today I honestly feel very bad about throwing the CD.
For the next 2 months I was in a very dark place. First there came the Great Divide, where our mutual friends apparently had to choose which one of us they would continue being friends with. Almost all of them chose her. Then there came the withdrawal symptoms. I was emotionally addicted to this girl. After all, we really committed to this relationship on an emotional level as far as fights went. I was sure that she already had a new boyfriend. I was sure that she already had forgotten about me completely. These types of thoughts ate away at me, until I was sure my life had come to a meaningless end.
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